“No matter the problems that
greet you - no matter the days left behind
Let yesterday’s sorrow, effect not tomorrow - survive it one day at a time!” (Abigayle)
March 4, 1999
I don’t know whether it’s the effect of the full moon in the desert sky (and a zillion stars that are so bright you feel as though you can reach out and touch them) or perhaps it's just “hormones”, but I’m having one of those thankfully rare nights when I can’t seem to get the opposite sex off my mind. (To put it nicely!)
I know I said I could live on “memories” (and the Lord knows I certainly have my share of those) but my body doesn’t seem to agree. Boy or boy, do I ever miss the warmth of loving arms around me. I don’t believe in – nor will I ever succumb to- casual sex, but gee whiz…it sure would feel nice to see the “fire” in someone’s eyes when they look at me. Oh well, as much as I wish I had found my life mate… I shall go on without him, and life is still wonderful! Maybe I’ll read my Bible for awhile before I go to sleep. Heavenly Father knows how I feel and surely he will help me get through this night.
Lonely but still happy...
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Picture below: Today I feel a little like that cactus... standing alone in a world of wonder. (photo by Abigayle)